When the Dust Settles.

Okay folks, time to the take off "Happy Go-Lucky" face and put on the serious face for once. There has been a really great reason why I haven't been posting many blog posts as of late. Most will notice a decrease from June to July to August to September. Here is your reason why:

There has been a large amount of stupid drama in my LS that I had to deal with and I have been surrounded by it for quite awhile. I did not have much motivation posting about my own personal ordeals because it all boils down to LS drama that shouldn't be happening in the first place.

So, to those reading this from my own LS or heck, my own server, here's the story of what has been happening.

It all started pretty well when the LS was erected. Got to meet people from FM and a whole slew of other people, even got to meet the famous Chinchilla. I still yet to believe that someone that comes out of my iPod would be someone I'd be teaming up to kill stuff in the game. Things are still going well and things have always been going well, at least that is what the eyes conceive. There are always things amidst going on, no matter what LS or organization you run. This thing has been bugging me for over 3 months. What upsets me is how long this ended up happening and how the fire did not stop burning for over a month.

Now, I'm not gonna get into details about what happened from July to September but I will start with what I thought "should" have ended the drama but it didn't.

Upon hitting the mid of September, it was the day that I thought I'd be rid of all the drama that existed in the LS. Of course, we all know that never happens, despite how close it is. What ended up happening was that one person who I hated with a burning passion was booted (not by me mind you and it was for legit reasons) and this other person (who was a sack and I felt was causing trouble in the LS) server transfered... took a Ridill with him but whatever, it's a toy item nowadays anyways. I think some of you guys might know who I'm talking about. It was gonna be that day, that day that I can say "whew.. shit is no longer putting me down, I am happy as fuck!"

That's where it should have ended... but it all got extended.

The result of that have triggered a minor rebellion where we had two select people (Medwyn and Bobbyray for those keeping track) pretty much going against us. And, this is where it just shocks me and I don't know why this had to happen, but it did and it ended like a stinky bomb tossed into a vent.

What pretty much happened was it started becoming personal to them. Of course, anyone that wants to have the perfect LS want to try to do anything in their power to make it the perfect LS. That becomes an obsession sometimes. An obsession where you do anything, even rebel the very leader who built that foundation just to make it perfect. An obsession where you become surrounded by the absolute truth that you created yourself that is the absolute right in your eyes and blinded by everything else. An obsession where you have no meaning or idea of what it means to others, only yourself. That is when your obsession becomes pointless. Instead, what become the obsession of Medwyn and the influence of Bobbyray... became their weapons to attack the foundation of this LS. There has been harassment, there has been attempts to topple over the leadership and there have been attempts to belittle greatly the integrity of the shellholder and the sacks.

Obsession is one thing that you should try to avoid in life. Obsession with perfection is even worse. What happened in the LS for the past few weeks have been a motive of obsession. They may be correct that there were some problems in the LS that needed to be corrected but there was lies being tossed in, there were jabs being shot out and there were a lot of threats being tossed up behind the scenes. All while having this being done in front of the LS, not because of the choice of the leaders but because Medwym and Bobbyray decided to draw it out there.

They made this obsession a personal battle. One that ultimately leads to no one being happy in the end.

Bobbyray was a friend to me. I talk to him on Vent or in-game about a bunch of personal stuff. But he let this obsession, this attempt to bring a perfect LS into this world and make everything completely perfect, trying to control something he limited control over, destroy friendships with not just me but with several other people. I'm just a sack in an LS and I give my opinions to the leader and I listen to the leader and carry out what is required from that leader, who just happens to be my girlfriend. I listen to people, I tell Lissy about it as that middle man. I know it annoys her but I give my opinions out regardless from these people. I listen, I don't order things unless I have to. Because of this, I get ignored from a person that I once called friend. Why? No reasoning was given and it just all felt like I was just packed into this group that "followed the leader" and now I'm branded as a bad guy.

Trust me, the past few weeks were harsh on me and a few others. In the end, both of them left the LS on some pretty bad terms. At least they decided to keep their dignity and walk out silently. Most tend to anyways.

Our LS isn't dying though. Nothing massive happened to cause damage to it and really, life will go on as it always does. This little battle has ended. It didn't end in the way that I wish for it to end it but I can put it behind me now... I'm just worried about what could happen next. If it does happen, will we survive it? I dunno but I'll keep going for as long as I can. I have no obsessions... I just have a loyal bond to Liseth, one that I intend to keep for as long as possible.